Suck on this bitch.

"Don't cry over spilled milk"

Yes. Don't.

Why are you crying because things that happen, happened?

Why are you crying over a person who threw you in the trash?

Why are you blaming yourself?

Because you don't want to ruin the perfect illusion of who he is.

Who he'll NEVER be.

I may have drowned in my tears.

I may have stabbed myself a few times.

I may continue to cry under my blanket.

I want to know.

Why the fuck would I believe an asshole like you.

Why the fuck would I be hurt by an asshole like you.

Why the fuck would I cry for some asshole like you.

Some words from truly deeply down my heart.

Fuck you, and fuck your life.

I loved you with all my heart.

With all my sincerity.

With all my effort.

Gave up so much.

And after all.

All for nothing.

I just want to let you know.

Everything I wanted.

Every time I got mad at you.

Is because I wanted what she has.

She has everything I want.

I don't like you. Especially the way you treat me.

Before, during, after.

But I disgracefully still have to admit I haven't let go.

But I will.

& I'll prove to you.

I am strong.

XXX

J.